Wednesday, June 25, 2014

Confessions of a Pastor's Wife....Confession #2

I like some rated R movies.....

There, I said it. 

I'm not going to make a list of all the ones I like so as not to be the stumbling block Paul wrote about in First Corinthians.  But you will probably figure out the genre (and possibly the list) by the description I write.

Most movies that earn the R rating are not on my watch-wish list.  In fact, the majority are not.  I abhor movies that are violent just to be violent.  I detest movies that mock the sacredness of marriage.  Also, I am not a fan of movies filled with crude humor.  So, as you can see, the list of movies with this rating is small and select.

The movies I like are those that depict lives of people who genuinely care about each other.  Whether it be the relationship between parent and child, between friends, or between spouses.  I love relationship movies.  And not just any relationship movies.  I adore movies that follow the interactions of these people as the relationship lasts through good and bad, through thick and thin, through sick and sin.  What I find most intriguing about the story line of these movies is that love and friendship are a priority.  Even when one party is acting in a way that makes the relationship undesirable.  They stick it out.  They muddle through to the other side of the problem. 

I wonder if the reason I love these movies is that this quality is one I lack.  The ability to stick it out.  To love someone no matter what.  The bible tells us to "Love Thy Neighbor"  and "Love One Another".  "God SO Loved the World....".  If that is to be my charge and my example, I'm not living up to the standard.  Do I love the unlovable?  Do I encourage those who are struggling?

Unfortunately, I often find myself thinking, "Sucks to be you."

I've thought about this a lot in the last few hours. I finished watching one of these movies (written and directed by the same man who wrote and/or directed the majority of the other "R" movies on my most watched list).   I wondered what drew me to these handful of movies in which the characters often use unbecoming language, insinuate inappropriate behavior, and sometimes participate in this inappropriate behavior.  What would appeal to a "good Christian girl" about these movies?  Maybe, I like the ability to legally stalk these characters through their lives.  Through weddings (maybe four in one movie) and funerals (only one in the four wedding movie).  And through life in between. 

But I think it boils down to the desire to love and be loved.  NO MATTER WHAT. 

I am blessed to have experienced this kind of unconditional love in my life.  Purely, from God.  And humanly, from several people who have stuck by me through sick and sin.  Maybe these movies remind me of the relationships in my own life that have weathered the storms.  Maybe they convict me of the desire God has placed in me to be more loving.

So, there.  I've confessed that I watch rated R movies.  But only those that are about love....actually.  And it's about time I said it. 


1 comment:

Barbara said...

Love your honesty. You are saying what a lot of us are thinking. Life is R-rated, whether we want it to be or not, and this is true for some more than others.

I like your perspective. You express yourself well. Thanks for writing this post.