Because I Am

I sit here at 2:00am with my laptop.  I can't sleep.  I'm in Ouray, Colorado.  My favorite place in the world and I can't sleep.  But I'm not frustrated.

Because I am...
     on vacation and I will be able to sleep whenever I want to without a set schedule.

So here I sit, surfing the web and pondering life.  These late night, early morning hours bring the thoughts lingering in the back of mind to the forefront. 

Last Sunday, God brought to light something in my character that I had tried to hide in the darkness of excuses.  Excuses that would have been readily accepted by the world.  Reprimand stings the ego.  And my bruised ego needed a little time to heal.  But then I thanked God for the discipline and asked that the Holy Spirit mold me to be more like Christ.

Because I am...
     a loved, treasured child of a Heavenly Father who is holy, just, merciful, and good.  He will prune away the fruitless branches of my being to shape me into the best me I can be on this side of heaven. 

Did I mention that God used my husband to place that glaring spotlight on that which I thought I had covered so well?  He did.  I was so hurt and angry, but at the same time deeply ashamed because I had disappointed both Troy and God.  I really wanted to lash out and verbally hurt him as much as he had hurt me.  But I didn't.  I just cried.

Because I am...
     so blessed to have a husband who strives every day to be the kind of man God desires.  Like God, he desires that I become more and more like Jesus.  He takes his position as spiritual leader of our family to heart.  For that I am eternally grateful. 

Actually, in His amazing wisdom, God used Troy to make me aware of this sin and in the process also opened Troy's eyes to an area in his life that needed some pruning.   We serve an amazing God.

So, it's now almost 3:00am and Troy just came into the living room of this amazing penthouse in which we are vacationing to tell me he can't sleep and is going to take a shower. 

T. M. I. ALERT!!!!

I think I'll go join him.

Because I am....
      married to a man I am passionately in love with and these are the moments that make vacations memorable.