God is God and I am Not

My close friends and family will undoubtedly nod in agreement when I say, "My mind is in a chaotic whirlwind right now."  I've journaled, prayed, daydreamed, and lain
awake at night thinking about the possible scenarios.  Unfortunately, nothing is settled and it's not public knowledge, so.....

You may be wondering why I even started this post in this ambiguous, cryptic, vague way.  Because that's how I'm feeling lately, that's why!  :)

I haven't posted much in the last few days because this non-public, undecided THING is forefront in my mind.   And to tell you the truth, I wouldn't know what to write about it because I don't know what's going to happen.....which leads me to the title of this post.  (Finally, huh?)

A quote I read recently stated, "To trust in God, you must also trust in His timing."  Of all the things I've learned about my Lord and Savior, this lesson alone has been the hardest.  I haven't mastered it, but He hasn't given up on me and continues to present me with life lessons designed to strengthen this area of trust.  I absolutely, without a doubt know that God is in control.  I have a peace that "passeth all understanding"  in knowing He has every detail of my life in His hands. 

Whatever God has planned for me, I'm game.  I just want to know what it is. 

Wow, God just spoke to my heart as I wrote that last sentence.

He said, "Do you really want to know all I have planned for you?"

And my heart said, "No." 

Do I really want to know the course my life will take?  The heartaches that are inevitable?  The very moments I will be amazed by my Creator's love for me? 

No.  I don't.

So,  I will wait [with expectation] upon the Lord.  He is God and I am Not. 

Blessed be the Name of the Lord!